How Are You?

I go from fine to depressed
And back again
Each day marked
With gratefulness
and desperation
Loneliness
and wanting to be alone

The day ticks by like it doesn’t care
Stretching time beyond reason
Yet the year scrambles away
As if it can’t stand its own fate
Of all it was supposed to be
But isn’t

“When things go back to normal…”
Loses its meaning 
Because so much is being lost 
In this upside down world
Things will only move forward
Toward the question marks ahead 
And “normal” will simply be what it is then

Are we okay? 
I don’t know 
I say I’m fine
But I’m not
But I am
This is my normal today.